I’m scared
You’ve become my everything
When you laugh deeply and your eyes light up
Like the stars, i stare at when I need a wish
When you smile it makes me forget all of my problems because it feels as if you solved them all
My face heats up when I talk to you
So I awkwardly try and cover my face
I’m not supposed to think of you this way
When your eyes shine I look away
Even though more than anything I want to tell you how beautiful they are
But I forbid myself to get hurt
Again
It hurts that I can't look you in the eyes without slowly drifting off into a daydream about something that will never happen
Sometimes I scare myself by thinking you're gonna leave me some day even though I know these fears are true I try to hide my terrors in happy thoughts that morph into worry
I keep myself under lock and key
Although I lost the key I make no effort to find it
When I talk to you sometimes I can’t breathe
The room closes in on me until no one's left just you and me
But I turn away
I fear I’m slowly boring you and it slowly tears me to shreds
It's like when you scream and no one can hear you
I blink back tears
But I can't forget you when your face is branded into my mind
But I'm not you preference
Sometime’s I fear I'll be no one's preference
If I could bang my head on a table without looking crazy
I don't know how many tables I would own
I'm so worried lately but I make sure you don't know why
It’s just me being crazy again no need for anyone to know
That slowly my voice fades into desperation
The once burning need I have for you is push into the back of my ever expanding mind
The little things you do drive me crazy
If I listed all the things I love about you
I'd have to run a mile to catch the paper
So I'm not revealing the secret I worked so hard to conceal
Because I learned I want to look nice for you but no to nice so you don't suspect
So best friend
Next time you laugh
Smile
Or look at me
I hope you get that I love everything about you
Yeah it’s slowly driving me crazy
So I'll hold my tongue for four years
Because I don’t want to hurt anymore
I don’t want to cover my face
And to try to deny the fact that I’m kind of crazy about you
